The Registration Letter....

We got it this week......the registration letter for Creston to enroll in Kindergarten this Fall.....actually, we got 2 packs of papers to fill out for him to start school....

And I immediately got a sick feeling in my stomach..................................................UUUggghhhh!!!

Why??????? Because I'm still not sure what we are going to do about Creston and his future with School or Home School. What are my main concerns???? I feel completely inadequate to teach him all the things that he'll need to know. I'm lazy and know that I probably will not be able to keep up a daily routine without the constant help and support of my husband....who isn't able to be home every day due to his job, and when he is home, has multiple other important things to work on that are home or second-job related. My in-laws are anti home school, so we really haven't discussed it with them because we don't want to "go there" with them about it just yet before we've decided.

I look at Creston and can't imagine him in school with all the other kids just yet. I imagine him being bullied and pushed around by the other "mean" kids and it makes me ill. I know that I can't be there with him every minute, and I know that he'll have to learn to fend for himself if he goes to school. (Which is a good thing, I know, but he's my oldest baby, and I worry!)

I'm just not sure!

The drive to take him to wither of the 2 possible school options would be around 20-25 minutes 1 way....with ME driving him. If he rode the bus, it would be longer. I can't imagine putting my little 5 year old on a bus that early in the morning to ride for that length of time....but MANY parents do that every day.

What will we do? I have no idea, but we'll have to decide by April, cause that's when the registration is. Oh me! I wish it weren't such a tough decision. Please pray for me and for us while we make this decision. It is a big one and I don't want to mess it up!